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Saturday, June 21st, 2008
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| Time: | 11:45 am. |
| Mood: |  crushed. |
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WHAT has happened to me???? HOW could i have done something like this??? this is NOT like me at all, and i really hate myself. i dont know who i am anymore, and i cease to care about living and my life at this point. i cannot live with myself knowing what i did, and to you of all people. i have reached the lowest point that i can and it sickens me. im fucking scum, a piece a shit, low-life, whatever you want to call me, i know that i am. i dont know why i always have to go and ruin things. there is just one last thing i want to tell you, im sincerely sorry from the bottom of my heart, but i know you dont believe me and i understand. good-bye...
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| Time: | 6:31 pm. |
| Mood: |  chipper. | | Music: | beast and the harlot. a7x. |
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x: Time = 638
:x: Name = curtis
:x: Tattoos = nope
:x: Piercings = nope
:x: Height = 5'9
:x: Shoe size = 9.5?
:x: Hair color = black and red
:x: Eye color = blue/green/grey
:x: Siblings = nope
Last:
:x: Movie you rented = the notebook
:x: Movie you last bought = deff havnt
:x: CD you bought/burned = new agony scene
:x: Song you listened to = amor for sleep, car underwater
:x: T.V. show you've watched = viva la bam
:x: thing you bought = a mesa head
Do:
:x: You have a crush? = nope, just a gf
:x: You wish you could live somewhere else? = probably but not sure
:x: Others find you attractive = i have no clue
:x: You want more piercings = i dunno
:x: You like cleaning = yes i do. i know im wierd
:x: You like roller coasters = yah
:x: You write cursive or print = i mix the 2
:x: Long distance relationships? = yeah and its not the funnest thing in the world
:x: Teenage smoking = haha...ummm. soooo grrrooooossss
:x: Driving drunk = deff the most stupid thing you can possibly do
:x: Ever cried over a girl = hahaha...ummm....ill leave this blank
:x: Ever cried over a boy = hahahah deff not
:x: Ever been lied to.= oh man...deff so
:x: Ever been arrested = hahah oh yah it really sucked
What:
:x: Shampoo do you use = herbal ess.
:x: Shoes do you wear = whatever i want
:x: Are you scared of = losing the one closest to me
Number:
:x: Of hearts I have broken? = none that i know of
:x: Of people I could trust with my life? = 1
:x: Of scars on my body? = 1,2,3..probly more
:x: Of things in my past that I regret? = hahah. 1
Do you think you are:
:x: Funny = at times
:x: Loveable = oh yeah
:x: Caring = very
:x: Dorky = i can be childish
Favorite:
:x: 4 letter word: i see
:x: Actor/Actress: edward norton... i dunno bout the girls
:x: Color(s): pink, blue, purple, lime green,
Person who last:
:x: Saw you cry: i guess britt
:x: Yelled at you: haha britt
:x: Sent you an email: umm... mesa?
Have you ever:
:x: Said "I love you" = yeap and still do
:x: Kept a secret from everyone. = but her
:x: Cried during a movie = hhah...yeah
:x: Planned your week based on the TV guide? = deff not
:x: What time is it now?: 648
:x: Apples or bananas?: = applesssssssss
:x: Blue or red?: = BLUE!
:x: Walmart or target?: = HAH! target
:x: Spring or Fall?: fall
:x: What are you gonna do after you finish this?: = waste the rest of my night with uselessness
Last:
:x: Noise you heard?: music?
:x: Smell you sniffed?: = taco bell
:x: Time you went out of state: last week
:x: Do you believe in love at first sight?: no
:x: Do you want children one day & if so, how many?: = yes...not alot
:x: Most important thing to you in a friendship is? hmm. thats tuff. not sure
Other Info:
:x: Criminal record?: = haa... umm just 2 speeding tickets and a wreck. my petty theft is almost over
:x: Do you speak any other languages?: = took spanish and learned nothing. know some sign language and thats it
:x: Last book you read: = somethin on picasso
:x: Who you love: = HERR!
:x: How old do you look? = umm i dunno
:x: How old do you act?: = at times 10
:x: Pets: = 2 teacup chihuahuas a boxer mixed with boston terrier and a cat that is possessed by the devil, and my farm
:x: What makes you happy?: many things
Have You Ever:
:x: Thought you were going to die: yeah
:x: attempted to Run away: = no
:x: Ran away: = /
:x: Been in jail: = juvy center
:x: Been in love: = still am
:x: Been suspended: = haha oh yeah
:x: Stolen Anything: = yeap
:x: Cheated On A Test: = many times
:x: Been In The Hospital: = yeah
:x: Let a friend cry on your shoulder: yeah but not a friend
:x: Fell asleep in the bath: haha no but know ppl who have
:x: Never slept during the night: yeah
:x: Been to camp: no
:x: Been in a earthquake: no
:x: Been in a tornado: nope
:x: Knew you were in love: = umm i dunno
:x: Streaked in the streets: = haha nope.
:x: Screamed at someone you love: = yeah
:x: Been attacked: yeap
:x: Stayed on the phone for over 3 hours: = doubled that
:x: What time is it now: 657
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Wednesday, June 8th, 2005
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| Time: | 12:02 am. |
| Mood: | deff not a good day. |
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so this honestly has been the worst birthday ever...
i just want to thank everyone who made it possible
:( </3
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| Time: | 5:34 pm. |
| Mood: |  blah. |
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soooo...
im 18 TODAY!
yeah.. yeah...
im off tomorrow if someone wants to hang out with me
any takers??
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| Time: | 2:18 pm. |
| Mood: |  artistic. | | Music: | btbam-alaska. |
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well its been a good long while since ive ever written in this thing so im gonna do what i did last year...and i have a show in good ole gainsville tonight... ppl should deff come.
my bday is in 3 days...
and i will be
18!!!
gah...already, it feels like yesterday when i was 16.
ilu
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mmkk..."Yall Are not perfect" and no one else thinks that...and on top of it alot of ppl dont like you and they have given you the nickname "the bitch from hell"...stop being so full of yourself and get your head out of his ass...your so insecure that you to change who you really are just to think that he will stay with you.now thats what i call TRUE love..NOT.you go to church so he will be like ok she loves god and stuff so he will stay with you, you try your hardest to be like her. you need to treat his friends like they are human beings instead of being a bitch to them...how can you say you cant get over his past? i would be able to understand why he wouldnt be able to get over yours bc youve screwed sooo many guys and thats just disgusting but he has only done it once with one girl... if he calls her and if she calls him soooo what im sure he can do what he wants to. anndddd all of my friends want yall to break up bc thats how much we cant stand you. and you cant take anything that stressess you out or you cant be around anyone that stressess you out.really everyone will stress you out.how much more rediculous can you be?? your soooo insecure thats why you are around him 24-7 just try to spend one day without seeing him. bc really i think you would go nuts.. and you get all pissy when i wanna hang out with my gf alone...realize that i only get to see her about...hmm..once every 2 weeks so just shut up about it bc its not gonna change...i think this is about all the effort im gonna waste just to get this to you...and i think you will know who you are after you read this...bye bye....
and P.S. ... his ex. was WAY WAY better than you......
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001) What time are you starting this? 10:42
002) Name?: curtis or curty if your my friend
003) Date of birth? 6-7-87
004) Sex?: male
005) Height?: 5'9
006) Eye color? blue, blue green, green...it changes
007) Hair color? auburn
008) Location?: my house
009) Where were you born?: orange park
010) Have you ever failed a grade?: nope
011) If you have, what grade did you fail? never have
012) Do you have a crush on someone?: yes i do
013) Do you have a bf/gf?: yeap
014) If so, what is their name? britt
015) How long have you been together? 4 months tonight
016) What are you wearing right now?:shorts and a FOB shirt
017) Would you have sex before marriage?: nope
018) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers? ummm i thought one was really hot
019) Are you a virgin?: yes
020) Do you smoke?: no
021) Do you drink?: nope
022) Are you ghetto?: fuck no
023) Are you a player? nope
024) What are your favorite colors?: pink and blue
025) What is your favorite animal?: the really small monkeys
026) Do you have any birthmarks?: not that i know of
027) Have you ever gone skinny dippin?: no..almost though
028) Who is your best friend?: britt
029) Have you ever dyed your hair?: yes
030) Who do you talk to most on the phone?: britt
031) Have you ever stolen something?: hahahah...ummm. yes
032) Do you get online a lot? yeap
033) Are you shy or outgoing?: im shy around ppl i dont know...im outgoing with my friends
034) Do you shower?: of coarse
035) Do you hate school?: every bit of it...im glad im a senior
036) Do you have a social life?: kinda
037) How easily do you trust people?: not very
038) Have you ever lied to your bestfriends?: yeap.cept britt
039) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: umm i guess
040) Would you ever sky dive?: sounds like fun
041) Do you like to dance?: um not really but occasionally i do
068) Have you ever been out of state?: mmhmm
069) Do you like to travel? yeap
070) Have been expelled from school?: nope. almost though
071) Have you ever been suspended from school?: yeap
071) Do you want to get out of your hometown?: yes
072) Are you spoiled? umm i used to be
073) Are you a brat?: no
074) Have you ever been dumped?: yeap
075) Have you ever gotten high?: nope
076) What's your favorite drink?: cherry coke
077) Do you like Snapple?: umm i used to drink it
078) Do you drink a lot of water?: no
079) What toothpaste do you use?: umm i dont memorize the name
080) Do you have a cell phone or pager?: used to have a cell phone
081) Do you have a curfew?: not really
082) Who do you look up to?: ummm...honestly i dont know
083) Are you a role model?: i hope not
084) Have you ever been to Six Flags?: yes..i was really little
085) What name brand do you wear the most? umm. whatever i have i wear
086) What kind of jewelry do you wear?: a pink heart bracelet
087) What do you have pierced?: used to have lip
088) What do you want pierced?: actually i dont know
089) Do you like taking pictures?: not really
090) Do you like getting your picture taken?: i fuckin hate it
091) Do you have a tan?: no..never have had one
092) Do you get annoyed easily?: depends on whos around me
093) Have you ever started a rumor?: not that i know of
094) Do you have your own phone/phone line? no
095) Do you have your own pool?: no
096) Do you have any siblings?: as in bros/sis...no
097) Do you prefer boxers or briefs: boxers
098) Have you ever been played?: probably many a time
099) Have you ever played anyone? no
100) Do you get along with your parents?: no
102) How do you vent your anger?: many different ways
103) Have you ever run away?: no, but have came very close
104) Have you ever been fired from a job?: nope
105) Do you even have a job?: yeap
106) Do you daydream a lot?: yeah
107) Do you have a lot of exes?: nope just one
108) Do you run your mouth?: nope
109) What do you want a tattoo of?: hearts, butterflies, birds, hehe, stuff like that
110) What do you have a tattoo of?: nothin
111) What are your favorite flowers?: i dunno names, but i know whats pretty
113) What does your most recent crush look like?: i dont have a crush i have a gf
114) Have you ever been bitched out?: ummm, im not really sure but probably so
115) When was the last time you bitched someone out?: never have
116) Are you rude?: nooooooooooooo
117) What was the last compliment you received? that i give good hugs
118) Do you like getting dirty?: oh hell yeah..lol..no i like to be clean
119) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: innie
120) Are you flexible? yes for a fat kid
121) What is your heritage?: dunno im adopted
122) What is your lucky number?: 39
123) What does your hair look like right now?: its everywhere
124) Could you ever be a vegetarian?: noooooo i love meat
125) When was your last real heartbreak?: ummm jan2 and feb15 i think
126) Describe your looks?: fat ugly, need i say more
127) If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: black
128) Would you ever date someone younger than you? yes
129) Would you ever date someone older than you?: sure why not
130) When was the last time you were drunk?: hahah i find this funny...
132) Would you rather give or receive oral sex?: ummm...since ive never done anything i cant say
133) Have you ever given?: nope
134) Have you ever received?: nope
135) Have you ever had an eating disorder?: hahaha yeah
136) Do you have one now?: yes...i eat to much
137) How many rings until you answer the phone?: who counts?
138) Do you like to kiss?: oh yes
139) If yes, when was the last time?: last night...it was very amazing too
140) Do you look more like your mother or father?: this is wierd bc even though im adopted everyone says i look like my mom
141) Do you cry a lot?: no
142) Do you ever cry to get your way?: no
143) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: i would never amputate a limb
144) What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: i see
145) Are you the romantic type?: yes
146) Have you ever been chased by cops?: hahah that sounds like fun...but no
147) What do you like most about your body?: my eyes?
148) What do you like least about your body? ALL OF IT!!!
150) When was the last time you threw up?: i have no clue
151) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: it seems like i go for blondes
152) What do the shoes you last wore look like?: nasty lookin etnies
153) Do you ever wear slutty clothes? hahah oh yes
156) Have you ever fucked someone up?: ummm seriously...
157) Have you ever skipped school?: no
158) What color are your underwear right now?: blue and white
159) What theme does your room have?: the boring theme
160) What size shoe do you wear? depends on if its a girl shoe or a guy shoe
161) What jewelry are you wearing now? none
162) What is your screen name on AIM?: Gettncrunkwcurty...xBuryMyHartx
163) Would you pick a wedgie in public? yes..did today
164) How are you feeling right now?: happy and tired
165) When was the last time you were at a party?: never been to one
166) Have you ever given a lap dance?: nope
167) What do you sleep in?: boxers and shirt
168) Has there ever been a rumor spread about you? i do not know...i think sooooo
169) What is one of your bad qualities?: that i let ppl walk on me and dont stand up for myself
170) What is one of your good qualities?: that im nice i guess and that i give good hugs
171) Would you marry for money?: no...thats fucked up
172) What do you drive?: a 2001 toyota echo
173) Have you ever given or received roadhead? no
174) Are you more of a mama or daddy's child?: neither
175) What's does your live journal username mean?: dunno..i made it up
176) What's your favorite live journal to read?: dont know
177) When was the last time you cried in school? never have
178) Do you wear Chucks?: mmhmm
179) For two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy?: oh yes...i have the boobies for em too :)
180) physically what do you look for in the opposite sex?: they have to look pretty..and body i guess i dunno
181) What personality traits do you look for in the opposite sex? funny, trustworthy, honest, and doesnt hide shit from ya
182) What is love to you?: me being with my baby
183) What time are you finishing this?: 11:14
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Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
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| Time: | 10:45 pm. |
| Mood: |  loved. |
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Does anyone know what its like to be IN Love?
well i do......and.....its AMAZING!
iloveyou..Muah<333333333
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Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
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| Time: | 11:04 pm. |
| Mood: | I Love Her. |
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wellll its been forever and a day since i have updated soooooo here i go....got school tomorrow and its been like 2 weeks and it sucks and i have alot of work to do and just BLAH!!! i have the best girl in the woooooooorrrrrrrrrrrlld i love her to freakin death but she lives forever away =[....interuptions suck too but yanno....i got to spend the night with her monday...and it was the best night of my life.EVER! but anyways...school sux. work sux.. and Saturday i have to go take SATs and me and phil are goin to the same place so it should be interesting....well im bored...really i am...bye bye...
I
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really i do...Muah<3
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Thursday, November 11th, 2004
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| Time: | 12:32 am. |
| Mood: | loved. | | Music: | yellowcard. |
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mk well i havent updated in forever and a day...butt... show last night = bad bc noone danced and we didnt do good, BUT we did really good on the new song so it was good....brit came over this mornin and we sat around for a couple of hours then she left for miami...Booo! today i listened to WFAFs lil recording we did a long time ago like when we first started and OMG we have come such a long way wow!i have ALOT of school work to do so im gonna go...ill update later...i have soome kinda fun life dont i... Not...oh and thanks for the knee in the balls...i loved it NOT!
<3Curty<3
i
love
her
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Friday, October 22nd, 2004
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mmk this is gonna be a short story bout me and her...here it goes enjoy...
Well I like her and she likes me...and we love each other tooooooo! but distance sucks but we are dealing with it...oh and im pretty much taken soooooooooo get over it...<33333333 bye bye
<3Curty<3
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Friday, October 15th, 2004
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| Time: | 1:47 am. |
| Mood: |  indescribable. |
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grrrr...life...i dunno bout it. im really confused in this point in time. i have somethin to say but cant bc im scared and it sucks and i want it to change...i think it is. and i feel so empty.................ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. make it stop.
</3
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Tuesday, September 28th, 2004
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i wrote this last night...tell me what you think of it!!!!
Pain filled emotions cover my heartless body.I wait for her, but care for nothing else. One day I will wait too long and end up dying alone.Please save me from my demise. You will find noone else like me, and you will have your chance more than once, and will pass each one of them up for a filler of the real thing. I behold what you need, but yet you look over me and find a substitute that seems to last very shortly. Your love is like a gun, with the barrel shoved down my throat waiting for you to pull the trigger. Kill me now for the pain of you breaking my heart is far too greater than you killing me. Let me finally rest in peace with your beautiful presence in my mind......<333
alrighty i wrote that last night...please comment to let me know what you think...PLEASE!!!! later peepz
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Friday, September 24th, 2004
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ok...back to school fest is tomorrow!! everyone should go! its gonna be a good time and see alotttt of bands including mine WOUNDS FROM A FRIEND!!!! if you go please tell them that you are there to see us...i need at least 15 ppl to do that bc if yall do we get to play with underOATH and that would be simply amazing and also the Chariot another amazingly good band...so it would be very great if yall would do this simple task for me, PLEASE!!!! i ask nothing else from you. thank you.
LoVe
X.O.X
</3Curty</3
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Friday, September 17th, 2004
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ok everyone here is the deal!
im in a band our name is WOUNDS FROM A FRIEND please dont forget it! we have a show next saturday, back to school fest, and you dont know how important this is to me.... everyone that goes needs to say that they want to see us...TRUST ME you will not be dissapointed.. im not tryin to sound cocky or anything im just sayin that i think we are good...lol... if we get 15 ppl to say that they want to see us we might have a chance to play with Underoath, Stretch Arm Strong, and The Chariot.... OMG you dont know how bad i would love to play this show...wow it would be amazing... so if you are goin to back to school fest on saturday the 25th please say you are there to see WOUNDS FROM A FRIEND...and bring your friends out to say that your seein my band...this means soooooo much to me....please comment to this to let me know what yall think.... thank you all
XGodOBlessX
</3Curty</3
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Wednesday, September 15th, 2004
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</3>??? bc i will be lonely if i dont have a date...well i feel lonely anyways but,.. any takers??? well i have a show next week and its gonna be fun, hopefully... and have recording in october and does anyone want to loan me $180? its for a good cause, i swear. if ya dont its cool.... whats wrong with me?? anyone want to take a shot at answerin this answer? bc i sure as hell dont know, and its startin to eat me alive, and it sucks, but im out...got school tomorrow...leave comments it will make me feel better.
call me if ya want to talk to...that would make me feel really good <33 472-9702
XLaterOLoveX
</3Curty</3
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Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
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1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
uhhhh...i want to be happy, but im not...and i dont see it any time soon...hmmm. life sucks....i want one thing, just one thing in my life right now....but that seems impossible to have. :(
p.s. </3
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Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
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Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
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| Time: | 2:14 am. |
| Mood: |  hopeful. | | Music: | FFTL- notE tO selF. |
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well practice was last night and it twas a lil fun and we made up a new song so im happy... today i made a myspace for the band and its goin well, and then me phil jeremy jon kyle all went to the mall and got some stuff... and lots of ppl were there and we had a good time and then me phil jeremy jon and kyle all seen the new exorcist movie...WOW... it was reallllly good and really freaky, but anyways ADWB show is tomorrow see everyone there unless ya are goin to the frigin Finch show, have fun payin all that money for em...i got school work to do. later, PeAcE
<33Curty<33
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Friday, August 20th, 2004
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well everyone...the show was last night,and............ noone showed up:( there were the usualls but only like 30 ppl including the bands... oh yeah only 3 bands played bc all the bands dropped out except for us and Fortitude and fortitude was late... so here was the line up
Lokyata
Fortitude
Wounds From A Friend
yes we headlined and then the guys from Crystal Lake used our equipment and played a couple of songs but yeah.... i thought i did terrible, but alot of ppl said we did good, especially it being our first show, but hey i enjoyed it.it was soooo fun i cant wait to play again....
i had school today too but it wasnt actually that bad, in fact i sorta enjoyed it, but i have work tomorrow so im gonna go head out. later everyone. Love<3
<33Curty<33
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